22.

when i am 22 my future look bright
how about 23?

eh age is just a number anywayz

i dont want to grow up.

can i be a little girl forever and ever and ever...........

too much to think in this world.

maybe i love you. maybe i do.

maybe.

and i wasted too many time doing nothing.

too many breaks already.

start working

now.

20/2-5/6

I seem have a lot to write 

But i just cant think of anything right now

mind goes blank

I JUST CANT WAIT TO GO HOME
.

homesick.

一直都沒有很想回家很想回去的感覺
但這星期 這感覺就一直的湧上來
世界很簡單 人類很複雜 向來都是不變的事實
從前有委屈感的時候 總會有很多人在身邊 你會知道他們明白你了解你
我總是能做到我想做的

到這樣 因為一切都是從零開始的關係
所有人和事都要靠自己慢慢建立出來
但當你預期 或是你期望的 跟想像中有落差
又或者 別人不像你一樣對關係有期望 又或者根本不重視
你就會覺得 好痛苦

可能是文化 可能是性格 我不知道 也沒有多餘力氣去了解
if it all started over again, how would it be?

I HAVE NO IDEA

不經不覺三個月了
從陌生 到熟悉 到想家了
sometimes i wonder if this is the life i want to live
but then sometimes i know i have been luring for this long time ago already

這陣子都有種想做好每一件事但又怕自己無能為力的感覺
自問不是想要高分 只是想對得住自己
就來又大一歲 感覺身邊的人都開始為自己的人生負責
我呢
卻依然像個無方向的小孩
一天到晚想著玩 想去看新事物 想了解多點這個世界
有時想放肆 但又會想 我多大了(?)
it's always a dilemma.

and sometimes i just wish my emotion can override my rational
then i don't need to struggle that much
do you know?

fuck me .